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A Lifetime of Recovery
CaTyra Polland, Training & Community Engagement
“God doesn’t love me” -Rachel
September is National Recovery Month. According to the 2023 United States National Survey on Drug Use and Health (NSDUH):
- 48.5 million (16.7%) Americans (aged 12 and older) battled a substance use disorder in the past year.
- 7.5 million (2.7%) of Americans 12 and older struggled with both alcohol and drug use disorders simultaneously.
There are millions of Americans in recovery across the country, Rachel Ortiz is one of them. Rachel is a Bronx, NY native who moved to Rochester, NY in 2022. She is the founder of Art for the Soul, an MWBE-certified non-profit organization that offers workshops such as Art as an Alternative to Violence. She is a 27-year army veteran, artist, creator, and spiritual coach. She’s healthy, happy, and whole, but that wasn’t always the case.
Rachel grew up in a loving and supportive home. She is the youngest of five children. Her parents were adamant about giving their children a good life. Rachel was on the right path but there was a turning point. When she learned her mom wasn’t really her mom, everything changed. At the tender age of 9, Rachel’s sister told her about her biological mother. Despite telling her family she was okay, the revelation shattered Rachel’s spirit. She was confused and felt betrayed by the family she once considered her own.
Rachel spoke to her biological mom, asking if she could come live with her. To Rachel’s devastation, her mother told her she could not live with her. Rachel was in disbelief. To deal with the rejection, she turned to alcohol. She had her first drink at the age of 10. By 14 she drank a six pack per day. She was convinced that the beer gave her courage. It made her feel brave. Alcohol was the start of Rachel’s downward spiral.
When she was 14, Rachel was introduced to cocaine. At 17, an army recruiter introduced her to heroin. Rachel spiraled, using alcohol, cocaine, and heroin in an attempt to self-medicate. It was her way of escaping pain, the pain of not knowing her mother, the pain and trauma of rape, and the pain of street living.
Rachel made several suicide attempts. In one such attempt she mixed cocaine and heroin. As she lay there feeling empty, she said Jesus reached his hand down to her from a painting on the wall. The epiphany that led her to an 8-day detox. She attended Narcotics Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous, and outpatient therapy. Rachel was clean from 1989-1991 until her brother died from complications of AIDS. In 1995, she returned to Narcotics Anonymous and she has been clean ever since.
Rachel’s story is similar to that of many recovering individuals. Drugs become a way to numb feelings, forget trauma, and mask the truth. Those in recovery overcome daily temptation to relapse. Fortunately, protective factors like family, friends, and recovery programs help Rachel maintain sobriety. Like others in a lifetime of recovery, she lives one day, one step at a time.
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